Friday, November 5, 2010

A Time to Reflect & Be Thankful

Thanksgiving Time is almost here, which means Playa time for me again! This will be my fourth Thanksgiving in Playa and my 15th trip overall!  I’m really looking forward to getting away and spending some times with friends.  I feel I’ve earned this trip. I really feel I have so much to be thankful for in my life.

It’s been almost a year since things starting unraveling in my life.  Someone I trusted and cared for decided to show his true colors and made me realize that what I thought was a deep friendship was only a cover for something more sinister.  To this day, this man has not owned up to things he has done and only proves what a con artist he really is.  Bygones, right?  We all learn our lessons in life and I’ve been taught a major one about people. I guess the only solace that I get it knowing that this person knows he is forever indebted to me for the job he has now and the things he gains in the future.  I am thankful that through it all, I know I am still the same person.  The one that cares deeply for others and will do whatever I can to help those in desperate need. 

This year also marked the end of part-time job for me and the start of a two new ones where I flourished and made some real friendships.  I am forever thankful for the friends I’ve made at both ZIN and at the Hotel where I work part-time.  These friendships have saved me in sense that I felt alone and in despair for awhile and some really great women came into my life when I needed to learn how to smile and laugh again.  I am so thankful, I think, more than anything for my girlfriends. 

I am also thankful for the lasting friendships I have made in real life with distant friends.  We are able to keep in touch, support, and love one other through social medias such as email, online forums and through Facebook.  I have received so much love and support from friends when I had the darkest of days this year.  

I cannot say that things are 100% wonderful in my life right now, but things are improving.  I still hope to sell my house and start a new direction in life.  But since my house has been on the market for nearly 2 ½ years, I have to firmly believe that everything happens (or doesn’t happen for a reason).  I just wish I knew what the reason was and I’d be given some sort of sign.  Or maybe I just need to be more aware of the signs that are there?  I’m thankful that I have a roof over my head and I was able to realize the American Dream of owning my home at the age of 32.  

I am thankful for Family.  A person could not ask for anything more than what I have in my own Family.  I don’t have a husband or children of my own, but I have a wonderful caring and supportive Family that loves me no matter what.  I’m lucky to have them all.  We are each other’s foundations as we go through life.

In addition to my Family and Friends, I thought of a few more things I am truly thankful for:

Life:  How lucky I am to be here on this Earth. Living and breathing!
Facebook: How great is it to connect with friends and distant friends on a daily basis!
Cats:  I am drawn to all cats, but my boy, Reese, is the light of my life.  Call me Crazy Cat Lady, I don’t care! J
Dancing:  It’s pure joy to be in a room full of smiing faces getting their grooves on, or just to be alone in the kitchen and Lady Gaga is singing ‘Just Dance!’
Lapham Peak:  My Sunday mornings with Megan hiking and running have been the best therapy!
6am Runs:  Before the sun comes up, around the lake, and through the cemetery.  Thank you Julianne!
Emotions: Sometimes it’s scary to think so deeply, but it’s also wonderful to really laugh to really cry and to really feel. 
Apologies:  Wonderful to hear them, even better to say them and mean it.
Forgiveness:  It’s even better when you are in the wrong.
Comfort: Comfort Food, Comfortable Yoga Pants and t-shirts, Comfy Chair and Blankie!
Kindness: the smallest act or word can change someone’s day. Be Kind to everyone, for everyone has their struggles.
Pedicures:  Pretty toes and feet! What more can I say!
Coffee Creamer: Has the ability to have your nemesis lose her mind and that was fun to watch. (yeah yeah..I know what I said about kindness…but this is different).
Smiles: Buddy Elf says ‘smiling is my favorite’ and he is so right on!
Glitter:  Yes, glitter makes me happy.  Glitter in hands, glitter in my hair, glitter on the floor.  Glitter me!
Positivity: Look for the good in everything and everyone and you’ll find it! 
Hugs:  An embrace makes you feel secure and loved.
You:  You are wonderful. Thank you for reading.

Now tell me what you are thankful for!

9 comments:

Becca said...

My Husband! He is a saint for helping me through my cancer treatments.

Andiline/Andrea said...

I am grateful for being able to lead the life that I have. I know people who are very sick and as much as I hurt for them it makes me realize even more how happy I am. :-)

Thanks, Vanessa, for reminding me!

Lisa Lisa said...

Great Blog Post, V! Now I remember the things I am thankful for. Friends and family of course. Then Chocolate and Red Wine!

Ms. Story said...

beautiful blog, only read one other blog and that was from my son. I am glad I met you at the hotel and hope to see you more.

Ms. Story said...

beautiful blog, only read one other blog and that was from my son. I am glad I met you at the hotel and hope to see you more.

CyndyJ said...

Lovely post, Vanessa - very heart-felt and true. I am thankful for my son, and for new beginnings.

Anonymous said...

For knowing you. We may be many miles apart but in my heart you're just around the corner. Joana

Vanessa said...

Miss you two, Joana!! I cannot believe it's been 3 years since I hugged you last! Maybe 2011 will bring us together again! You have been such an instrumental part of my life these past years. Your advice and friendship has been priceless! XO

Anonymous said...

It's a shame that Paulo isn't a more upstanding person. But it sounds like you are moving past his deception. Chin up and keep reaching for your dreams. xo L