My life has been a rollercoaster lately. Or at least my emotions have been riding the gamut of highs and lows. There has been lots of doom and gloom in my life lately and I found myself standing on the precipice of darkness. I don’t go there often in my life, but when I do it’s hard for me to rise above and pull myself out.
Last week there was a cascading effect that wouldn’t stop and I wanted to crawl away and hide for a bit. But, I found myself realizing that the things affecting me so negatively were things I had no control over. I cannot control people and I cannot control situations. I can only control myself and the way I respond to those things both good and bad around me. After wallowing all day on the couch yesterday with waterworks in full force, I decided enough was enough. It’s time to move on.
Today, I awoke with a determination to put a smile on my face no matter what. I focused on the little things that make my happy. My kitty cat, Reese, snuggling me when the alarm goes off. He seems to know that the alarm means that I’m gone most of the day so he tries to lay on my head so I won’t move out of bed. He never does it on the weekends. I thought I’d have to stop at the grocery store on my way into work to pick up breakfast, but when I was packing up my laptop, I was pleasantly surprised to find a Banana Nut Bread Cliff bar. (I’ve become so addicted to these). Oh..and I lost 2 pounds over the weekend from eating right, drinking water, and working out.
I also sent out emails to realtors in my area to let them know about my condo and that I was interested in meeting with them once my current contract is up on Dec 3rd. I already got 5 responses from agents eager to meet with me and some advice as well. It makes me feel great to know that I might have someone working for me to sell my condo in the near future. I feel that if I can meet with them now, I can look over the information and make an informed decision instead of having to rush into a new one. I’ll be all ready to roll from my current company to the next. In the meantime, the now have links to my place if they should have a potential buyer for me.
Our economy is the crapper right now. I know this. But, being optimistic has got to have it rewards, right
9 comments:
STOP reading O by OPRAH- Just a little advise.....you gotta have clouds to appreciate the sun.
I cannot afford to read 'O' anymore! :) Too many clouds lately...and I think I suffer from S.A.D.D.
I can handle the little fluffy clouds, just keep the stormy ones away from me.
If you ever need me to throw you a rope to lift you out of the darkness just ask. I go there from time to time myself. I just have to keep telling myself "If I never have a shitty day I won't know what a good day is".
You know what I was thinking when I met you in May? I thought "I want to be her". You are a gorgeous, kind, funny, amazing woman. You may not know it but yu bring sunshine to the people you meet. Hugs to you Vanessa...:)
I'm still bummed I've never met you, amazing woman!! And I'm sad your dream is taking so long to be realized. But I know it will someday. I'd tell you which someday in particular, but then I'd have to kill you, and that would be completely counterproductive.
Sweetie- sorry that you have been doing bad (again). Good to hear the rollercoaster is pointing upwards now. I know how depression feels - been there done that- and I know how hard it is to kick it's ass and get moving....... it's like swimming through honey.
But as I told you many times before: try to accept that there is a reason why this is happening the way it is. Maybe not one you see right now- but one you'll understand in the future.
Example: when my second move to Mex failed I was devastated. I had no money and no job when I came home, was a wreck after having dengue- and the guy I was dating at the time broke up with me almost the second the plane touched ground in Europe. I hated that time- and I hated what happened and was SO angry at life. Looking back I see that I would have never started studying medicine had all that NOT happened. So life has a way of working for the best- even if we not always see it in the given situations.
Maybe this is just a lecture on patience from life to you, maybe there is more.
Hugs
Jo
You have friends who love and care about you, so you are a very rich woman. Life can be a bitch, but it always gets better. The day after my Dad died was a horrible day and on the way back from the hospital I saw a rainbow - I know it sounds hokey, but even in great sadness you will find something to help renew your soul to keep going.
Are you coming to New Orleans next year with Maggie and I ???? :)
Tappy
Sorry you're having a Chitty time Vanessa. On the bright side, the crappiest day of all time only lasted 24 hours! Let me know if you want any words O' wisdom in choosing your realtor!
Vanessa,
Hope you are feeling better. I am always here for you. YOu have alot going for you and when the time is right you will sell your condo and move to Mexico!
I love you! M
Vanessa...Heads up I am tossing you a life preserver! Girl...way to go by not choosing to wither a way in sorrow to life's uncontrollable hurdles. Hang in there and stay on top sister! Love ya!
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